Aug 9, 2004 - Jan 16, 2009

The lifespan of my time at Cope Associates, just about 4 1/2 years.

I feel used.

The Higher-Ups had said we'd all weather the storm together. We were in a more stable portion of the sector. It'd be lean but we could get through it.

Then we didn't get the jobs we'd shot for. 2nd place is still Loser-#1. Add in the jobs that are still on hold in January because of spending freezing and you have a surefire recipe for disaster.

Me, another production-level Chris, and a project-manager Ty got "laid off" yesterday. I suppose it's because we can't bring in as much work as others, directly and that with the experience the 3 of us have we can probably get jobs faster than others.

Whatever.

I suppose it hurt so much because it's the first job I got wherein I could use my degree. There is hurt in there because the Higher-Ups weren't honest with us. Knowing up front that layoffs would be imminent should we not garner new work would have been refreshing and alert us to the possibility that this could happen.

There's also alot of anger.

At myself for being naive enough to believe them. At them for tossing me away. At the world in general for being so f'd up. *that's a constant and nothing new*

They'll miss our presence eventually. But as someone who'd hoped to be a "settle into one job and that's it" kind of person, I'll miss our presence NOW.